4/8/08

Jai'Ana is my world.......



My daughter means everything to me..... I do not know what I would do without her. I am glad that she is mines. I know she will always love me no matter what. It's funny because when at a shoe store trying shoes or sneakers on she knows that you to walk to see how they feel. The other day I went to buy her some sandals, she said " I put on shoe mommy, I wanna walk, I walk mommy." I said "yes, walk, let me see how they look." She responds "OK, mommy." I try my best to take care of her to best of my ability and I think i am doing a damn good job (not bragging)......It is very hard being a single mother but when in the situation you have to suck it up and accept the responsibility. She entered the world in 2005 and that is the day that I knew my life would change forever. I knew that it might be a challenge when she first arrived home. Just thinking back when she was about a week or 2 weeks old. I cried to my mom and said " I can't do this, I'm not going to be a good mom, I just can't do this." Once again my mom was there for me and told me " you're going to be a good mom, don't worry I will be here to help you." She has not turned her back on me ever. It is a blessing having a child and being on your own can become a struggle. I have been independent ever since I could start working which was when I was 15. But now I have become more independent. I have also decided to try and take her to many places in the summer so she wouldn't be bored and she could experience some new things.